Greetings people on the Internet! Its been 4 months since I last updated this space which I feel quite sad about since I wanted to commit to posting more frequently and also to keep a record of things I've done! But I guess I' sort of back? The past 4 months had passed by in a blur! With work, travelling, and the ending of my 8 months break to getting back to school, I've been pretty busy. I believe my break had been a fulfilling one. Though it would be great if it was even longer. School just started, this week being the first week, and its been stressful and daunting and (sorta exciting???) but not really. There's so many things that I need to get used to, so many things I'm still trying to understand, its been a rather rough week. 

I'm not quite sure if I'm really liking the course or the school yet... I've met some really nice people so far though! . Work wise, I'm confused most of the time. There's a whole lot of math and I have a feeling I would actually start hating math. I used to really look forward to becoming a uni student and expected uni to be easier and more fun, but so far I think I'm mostly scared, worried and stressed out. It seems really challenging and I'm just lost. Hopefully, I'd be able to adapt and be more disciplined, hardworking and stuff. I would really need a University survival guide, like Ned's declassified school survival guide, but for university.

Oh and the picture above is a picture of me in front of a waterfall in Jeju, South Korea, which was where I went to last month! That's something I'd probably be posting in the future! So I guess that's all I'd like to talk about for now! Till next time, Cheers!

Let's just say my grades... are not so good. I'm not just talking about my school's standard but in general. It probably is sufficient for entering the local universities. Was I disappointed? Yes but I guess considering I wasn't the most hardworking or motivated person I could have been, I can't really complain. Of course I had expectations, and even though overall I did improve from my usual sucky school grades (all except one...), it doesn't make them less sucky. I did mourn over my grades but having to decide on what I want to do in uni was harder. First of all, I don't really have an idea of what I am interested in. Secondly, my choices are limited considering my grades. Thirdly, what's practical for the future.

Maybe some of you would say, just chase your dreams even if its not the common route, you can still succeed in life. You don't want to regret when you're stuck in a 9-5 job in an office. However, the problem now is, I don't even have a dream (I mean a realistic one). Of course I wanted to be a celebrity, a singer or theatre or some creative job or something, but in reality, I'm not exactly that talented. Yes, I can somewhat sing, but I'm not especially talented in music, neither can I dance or act. To make those dreams a reality, most would have gone through vocal trainings, dance from young, went for acting lessons and the list goes on. Well, I'm probably just a mediocre singer and I'm not exactly creative, so its pretty challenging to know what I'm good at and what I'm interested in. One thing I do know is that, I am extremely horrible in the sciences, other than math, and so I guess I'm slightly better in the humanities? So I came to the conclusion that I'd do something in the humanities or social sciences. My first choice is to get into the Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences, also known as FASS, in NUS. I believe the chances are quite slim, since its pretty popular and my grades just suck big time. But I really really really do hope that I can be offered a place. Praying really really hard that I can.

Maybe some of you are also dealing with things not meeting your expectations or things not going your way. I might not be in the best position to tell you this since I can be pretty pessimistic, but just remember, be positive. Grades don't define who you are, neither do your failures or successes. (I'm not really sure what defines us though) Comparison steals joy, don't get caught up in comparisons or what people have to say. As long as whatever you do is morally right , why should you bother about what they have to say. Ultimately, you are you, no one can change that.  And you know what? Things are going to be okay in the end so if they're not, then its not the end. 

Really thankful for this class and though we're not the most bonded class and we all have our differences, we managed to be in harmony and be somewhat comfortable around each other? (Maybe I'm not so comfortable with guys) I managed to meet people I consider as some of my closest friends so even though we met under not so desirable conditions but I'm glad nonetheless.

Hello people!!!! I'M FINALLY BACK! A levels are not over yet but the major papers are overrrr(*happy dance*) I'm left with one last paper which I still need to study for. I'm glad that As are almost over and done with but at the same time sad coz' honestly they're pretty sucky and I don't think I'll fare well. Can't really do anything about them anymore but I'm hoping the outcome won't be horrendous like I think they are. 

Anyhooo, music is my life if you haven't realise so of course there's gonna be some songs that i've been replaying non-stop like this one!! Maybe some of you might realise its from the movie The Book Of Life. But the singers were actually Youtubers and they're now signed under Republic Records if I'm not wrong. Yes this duo is a couple and they first sang this song on their wedding! They wrote a song that was practically their vows!!!! AWWWWWWW its so incredibly sweet that I always feel warm and fuzzy inside when I listen to it. Their relationship is to die for. Such a cute couple and their other songs are pretty awesome too coz' almost all the songs they've written are like blurbs of their relationship. But recently I've realised that many of their original songs are taken down from YouTube. I think its because of them being like legit artistes under a label now. Their covers are still on their channel though so be sure to check them out if interested. One favourite of mine would be their TV medley, to be honest I don't know all the songs but they sang it so wonderfully that i still love it anyway.

They're actually gonna be in Singapote ti perform on 10 December with Gentle Bones as the guest! Gentle Bones is local talent actually and he's in my school alumni. He's on YouTube as well! Not all of his songs are my cup of tea but he's pretty talented. I kinda wanna go for their gig but I'll be overseas and maybe my obssession with them is just a phase. They have a music video of No Matter Where You Are as well for the movie! 

Typed this entire post on my phone so I apologise if there are any spelling mistakes. My sister's Macbook is kinda wonky right now so I'm not gonna risk spoiling it in my hands. Been listening to T Swift's 1989 as well but i think I'm gonna write up a separate post on it. 

My spotify playlists have been so on point. I'll share my link another time though and probably talk a bit about it as well coz' I'm too lazy to do that right now. Typing a blog post on my phone is not very easy. Till next time! Cheers!

Hey guys! Sorry for not updating for 2 weeks but i'm trying to eliminate distractions so yes blogging is one of them, which I don't even think I've been very successful anyway... So yes i''m hoping and praying really hard that a miracle can happen and I won't screw up As badly... Its terrifying. Laziness is like a part of me now that I can't even control distractions are EVERYWHERE. Whoever that's reading this blog please pray for me too, I desperately need it. 

By the way I'm effing terrified by you readers coz' I have no flipping idea who y'all are and I'm trying my best to not put myself so out there. Whatever thats on the internet stays on the internet and I have no idea if whatever I've written would be placed against me sometime in the future. I'm fine with strangers reading all these but people who know me personally? (Or just people around me in general) its quite embarrassing & awkward. And you know what if I happen to be ranting about them or something (which I shouldn't be putting online but this was meant to be an outlet and to talk about things I like) So yes especially seeing readers from Singapore, effing scary.

Anyway back to the song its from the movie The Princess Diaries, which was originally a book series, one of my favourite Disney movie of all time, Anna Hathaway anyone? And also I love the books by Meg Cabot, not very educational but its funny and easy to read, sue me. The song is just a fun and uplifting so enjoy! 

I'll be on hiatus for a month or so unless i decide to vent my frustrations about exams and stress(this better motivate me). The blog would likely be more interesting and more frequently updated after As coz I can then play without guilt! Till next time! Cheerio!

Hi people! I'm back with a cover of a song which I've been loving lately! All About The Bass! It's basically about loving yourself regardless of how you look which brings a great message about body image! Problems of body image is pretty prevalent in the world, girls especially because of how the media presents beauty. We see all the models on magazines and celebrities and we choose to believe that all these people depicts what we call beauty. However, they're not perfect, neither are we, but we are all beautiful in our own ways. Beauty is subjective and being skinny does not equate to being pretty. You should be confident, just because you may be a littler chubbier does not make you ugly. People do tell me that I'm fat and I'll get upset over those comments. So maybe I'm not one to convince you that you shouldn't let judgements get to you but I'm trying to ignore those comments. Its difficult, when I'm surrounded by people who are thinner than me and I do envy those people sometimes. However, you have to learn how to be confident in your own skin. I'm trying to lose weight, though I'm mostly caught between "I AM PERFECT JUST THE WAY I AM" & "I'M FAT", usually I'm just too lazy to make a change by exercising or eating healthier (less). Even if you want to lose weight, you should do it healthily and not go through extreme methods like extreme dieting or eating diet pills or result in an eating disorder. I know I'm not a professional but if you really want to slim down, you should exercise and eat healthy. Currently, I'm trying to get more active but the eating healthy part is not really in my routine because I LOVE food and also its pretty difficult to eat healthy since breakfast is not really within my control (I have to eat whatever my mum makes or what my dad buys), I have lunch in school and my dinner is catered from a catering service. 

To be more active, little changes like walking more or have really short workouts would be great, there are plenty of workouts on YouTube (check out blogilates) too. Check out this app PumpUp, which is basically like a social media platform for people trying to get fit. You'll get a lot of motivation from other users and some ideas as to what you can do! I know I'm getting a little addicted to the app. Exercising is great because it relieves stress from releasing endorphins and it is not just for losing weight but to stay fit too. 

Most importantly, you need to have the right mindset, you will do all these for yourself and not for other people (eg. trying to impress guys/girls). You shouldn't be ashamed of your body because nobody is perfect. Its okay if you look different, as long as you're living healthily and you feel good about yourself, nothing else matters. I might not be the most confident about how I look and it may seem ironic to say all these but I guess I'm trying to convince myself too.

On a side note, a social experiment was done to test how girls and guys will react if their date is fat (looking different from their Tinder profiles) and I can conclude that guys are superficial creatures. Girls, maybe its a good thing to be bigger since we'll know who are the superficial jerks and who are genuinely into you. Likewise for guys, but you'd be comforted by the fact that in the experiment where the guy is fat, all the girls actually stayed for the whole date.

Anyway, hope I didn't butcher the song! And remember:

“You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful.” 

Hey people! I'm back since my prelims are over! But A levels is 37 days away (goddamnit) I should probably start work soon, but I have a feeling I'm going to be slacking till next tuesday coz' that's when school is back in full swing again. I don't have anything interesting to talk about so it's another music recommendation! An original song by 2 YouTubers, Chester See and its co written by Golden. Its a sappy love song, and it touched me because of how much emotions is poured into this song by Chester. I felt so so so sad for him, though I personally didn't go through a break up before, neither was I ever in love, but how he sang it, it touched my heart

On a side note, YouTuber, Bethany Mota, aka macbarbie07, is on DWTS! So proud of her! And Seventeen Magazine has a special YouTube issue (which is only available in the US. ARGH) 

Also, I'm thinking about getting vocal lessons after A levels, which my sister thinks is a waste of money. BUT if I'm gonna be working and I have the money, why can't I do it. If you think about it, I'm learning a skill, which is much better than shopping and spending on material goods right? & I don't wanna learn driving as of yet, coz' the cars in Singapore are ridiculously expensive, I don't think I'll be driving one, let alone own one anytime soon. So why can't I learn how to sing. (Belinda is ranting again. what's new.) Have been really irritable nowadays, god I'm becoming such a cynical and horribly mean and impatient person. (I can list all my flaws but I hardly ever think I can really change them) 

SO ANYWAY. Hope you enjoy the song and till next time! Cheerio!