Hey people on the internet! Happy New Year since this is the first post of 2016! Haven't done a Music Lovin' post in such a long time so I'm back with one! This song isn't new to me and I've been obsessed with Mindy Gledhill's music since 5 years ago or so? How did I find out about her? From watching Michelle Phan's make up tutorials hahahah. Yes I was addicted to Youtube and make up tutorials since 2009 or so and Michelle Phan likes to use Mindy Gledhill's music in her videos and I'm glad since I was able to get to know great talent like hers. I chose this video specifically because she sounds EXACTLY the same live and on her recordings or maybe even better??? I would say her music is whimsical and just makes me really happy when I'm listening to her songs. Her christmas album is pretty great too! 

California is a really cute song probably great for a road trip or just travelling in general? Or even when you feel like going on a trip but is not able to... listen to this and imagine where you could go? The possibilities are endless but its just a light hearted song to be enjoyed, kick back and relax while listening to this! Hope you'll enjoy this song as much as I do! Till next time, Toodles!

Hey people on the internet! I'm currently on my mid term break which doesn't even seem like a break at all since I'm going to school almost every single day this week? Uni life was totally not what i expected it to be. Endless projects and so much to catch up on, its overwhelming me. I had my mid terms and they are already pretty terrible. I'm horrible at time management and I feel so dumb in uni because everyone else in comparison just seem to have their life together and are able to understand things being taught. Where here I am, drowning in the big sea, barely surviving. I'm being deprived of sleep trying to get things done and just so so tired. There are many times I'm just questioning all my life choices, whether I even fit in? And I'm just so afraid that history will repeat whereby I just break down and give up. 

Though I've met some pretty nice people in school, I just wonder if those friendships will last, whether they'll become my close friends or not. Everybody is just everywhere and sometimes I miss my old friends so much. But everyone's just so busy with their own lives, its difficult to catch up with them & there's always this fear that those friendships will eventually fade away, fear that I will be replaced or maybe I'm just not that important to them as they are to me. 

Projects are the worst. Grouping with people you don't know and meeting people that just work so differently, its difficult to get things done. You're forced to work with people you know you will never be friends with, as sad as it sounds. And people say uni is easier, bunch of liars, all of them. So so exhausted.

Greetings people on the Internet! Its been 4 months since I last updated this space which I feel quite sad about since I wanted to commit to posting more frequently and also to keep a record of things I've done! But I guess I' sort of back? The past 4 months had passed by in a blur! With work, travelling, and the ending of my 8 months break to getting back to school, I've been pretty busy. I believe my break had been a fulfilling one. Though it would be great if it was even longer. School just started, this week being the first week, and its been stressful and daunting and (sorta exciting???) but not really. There's so many things that I need to get used to, so many things I'm still trying to understand, its been a rather rough week. 

I'm not quite sure if I'm really liking the course or the school yet... I've met some really nice people so far though! . Work wise, I'm confused most of the time. There's a whole lot of math and I have a feeling I would actually start hating math. I used to really look forward to becoming a uni student and expected uni to be easier and more fun, but so far I think I'm mostly scared, worried and stressed out. It seems really challenging and I'm just lost. Hopefully, I'd be able to adapt and be more disciplined, hardworking and stuff. I would really need a University survival guide, like Ned's declassified school survival guide, but for university.

Oh and the picture above is a picture of me in front of a waterfall in Jeju, South Korea, which was where I went to last month! That's something I'd probably be posting in the future! So I guess that's all I'd like to talk about for now! Till next time, Cheers!

Let's just say my grades... are not so good. I'm not just talking about my school's standard but in general. It probably is sufficient for entering the local universities. Was I disappointed? Yes but I guess considering I wasn't the most hardworking or motivated person I could have been, I can't really complain. Of course I had expectations, and even though overall I did improve from my usual sucky school grades (all except one...), it doesn't make them less sucky. I did mourn over my grades but having to decide on what I want to do in uni was harder. First of all, I don't really have an idea of what I am interested in. Secondly, my choices are limited considering my grades. Thirdly, what's practical for the future.

Maybe some of you would say, just chase your dreams even if its not the common route, you can still succeed in life. You don't want to regret when you're stuck in a 9-5 job in an office. However, the problem now is, I don't even have a dream (I mean a realistic one). Of course I wanted to be a celebrity, a singer or theatre or some creative job or something, but in reality, I'm not exactly that talented. Yes, I can somewhat sing, but I'm not especially talented in music, neither can I dance or act. To make those dreams a reality, most would have gone through vocal trainings, dance from young, went for acting lessons and the list goes on. Well, I'm probably just a mediocre singer and I'm not exactly creative, so its pretty challenging to know what I'm good at and what I'm interested in. One thing I do know is that, I am extremely horrible in the sciences, other than math, and so I guess I'm slightly better in the humanities? So I came to the conclusion that I'd do something in the humanities or social sciences. My first choice is to get into the Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences, also known as FASS, in NUS. I believe the chances are quite slim, since its pretty popular and my grades just suck big time. But I really really really do hope that I can be offered a place. Praying really really hard that I can.

Maybe some of you are also dealing with things not meeting your expectations or things not going your way. I might not be in the best position to tell you this since I can be pretty pessimistic, but just remember, be positive. Grades don't define who you are, neither do your failures or successes. (I'm not really sure what defines us though) Comparison steals joy, don't get caught up in comparisons or what people have to say. As long as whatever you do is morally right , why should you bother about what they have to say. Ultimately, you are you, no one can change that.  And you know what? Things are going to be okay in the end so if they're not, then its not the end. 

Really thankful for this class and though we're not the most bonded class and we all have our differences, we managed to be in harmony and be somewhat comfortable around each other? (Maybe I'm not so comfortable with guys) I managed to meet people I consider as some of my closest friends so even though we met under not so desirable conditions but I'm glad nonetheless.